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Mene, Mene, Tekel, Parsin

I witnessed a long-awaited answer to prayer in a court of law yesterday. Toward the end of the post is more information on that but first I am sharing a letter I sent to family and friends the day before the verdict.

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P R A Y E R acronym

Please continue to pray for the children to have justice and closure in this chapter of their lives.

Why do I keep asking for prayer support with praying scripture over this trial? I am aiming scripture at the bull’s-eye of this target and I have no intention of missing.

Jesus used scripture to aim at the bull’s-eye of the temptation, issue or challenge in front of Him during His time on earth. That means I can do the same thing; in fact, I can call on what I know God’s word has to say about such topics. This is why I have chosen so many scriptures out of the book of Psalms. I want to walk with God through this and these are the scriptures He has equipped me with. The enemy has had his feet on my promised land, and multiple children’s promised land, for long enough. I’m shooting him off it! I am not shooting at random; I am aiming for victory.

So please keep shooting with me; over and over and over and over and over. Stand up as a son or daughter of the King Eternal and take your rightful place as a master marksman. Keep practicing because at the end of this week I have faith the bull’s-eye will have a hole right through the middle of it!

 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.  John 15:7-8

 

As you pray remind the Lord who the defendant is:

Psalm 36

I have a message from God in my heart
concerning the sinfulness of the wicked;
There is no fear of God
before their eyes.

In their own eyes they flatter themselves
too much to detect or hate their sin.
The words of their mouths are wicked and deceitful;
they fail to act wisely or do good.
Even on their beds they plot evil;
they commit themselves to a sinful course
and do not reject what is wrong.

 

Intercede for the children:

Psalm 9

I will give thanks to you, Lord, with all my heart;
I will tell of all your wonderful deeds.
I will be glad and rejoice in you;
I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High.

My enemies turn back;
they stumble and perish before you.
For you have upheld my right and my cause,
sitting enthroned as the righteous judge.
The Lord reigns forever;
he has established his throne for judgment.
He rules the world in righteousness
and judges the peoples with equity.
The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed,
a stronghold in times of trouble.
10 Those who know your name trust in you,
for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.

11 Sing the praises of the Lord, enthroned in Zion;
proclaim among the nations what he has done.
12 For he who avenges blood remembers;
he does not ignore the cries of the afflicted.

16 The Lord is known by his acts of justice; the wicked are ensnared by the work of their hands.

 Psalm 18

I love you, Lord, my strength.

The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

I called to the Lord, who is worthy of praise,
and I have been saved from my enemies.

 

16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.
17 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.< br> 18 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the Lord was my support.
19 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.

 

25 To the faithful you show yourself faithful,
to the blameless you show yourself blameless,
26 to the pure you show yourself pure,
but to the devious you show yourself shrewd.
27 You save the humble
but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.
28 You, Lord, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.
29 With your help I can advance against a troop[e];
with my God I can scale a wall.

39 You armed me with strength for battle;
you humbled my adversaries before me.
40 You made my enemies turn their backs in flight,
and I destroyed my foes.
41 They cried for help, but there was no one to save them—
to the Lord, but he did not answer.

46 The Lord lives! Praise be to my Rock!
Exalted be God my Savior!
47 He is the God who avenges me,
who subdues nations under me,
48     who saves me from my enemies.
You exalted me above my foes;
from a violent man you rescued me.
49 Therefore I will praise you, Lord, among the nations;
I will sing the praises of your name.

 

My friend Kim, who traveled to the trial with me, and I did an ENORMOUS amount of praying Wednesday. We had a Bible plus index card notebooks full of favorite scriptures with us and we prayed them out loud over the verdict as we drove in the car and as we sat in the court room.

Here are two of my favorites; the first is from Romans 2:5 which I was praying/whispering, inserting the defendant’s name, when we received word that the jury had reached a verdict. I prayed it again as the verdict was read.

Romans 2:5 “But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed.”

Second is Daniel 5 and it is the story of Nebuchadnezzar seeing the hand writing on the wall. If you have not read it, or would like to refresh your memory, you can go to:  http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Daniel+5&version=NIV

25 “This is the inscription that was written:

mene, mene, tekel, parsin

26 “Here is what these words mean:

Mene[e]: God has numbered the days of your reign and brought it to an end.

27 Tekel[f]: You have been weighed on the scales and found wanting.

28 Peres[g]: Your kingdom is divided and given to the Medes and Persians.”

The hand writing was on the wall in the spiritual realm so we prayed,” Mene, mene, tekal, parsin” just before the the verdict was read.

You see our work is to pray. God’s work is to respond or act on our prayers; in His time and in His way.

I am grateful beyond words that God answered, “Guilty.”

Today I am emotionally exhausted but pleased, thrilled and relieved.

This is the beginning of a new chapter of life for everyone involved and as Kim said yesterday, “I bet that millstone is looking like a much better option than prison to him about right now.”

Matthew 18:6 “If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea. “

Sentencing is in August and will most likely be somewhere between twenty-five years, without the possibility of parole, to life.

Here are some scriptures I have prayed to thank God:

 

Psalm 44:4-8

“You are my King and my God,
who decrees victories for Jacob.
Through you we push back our enemies;
through your name we trample our foes.
I put no trust in my bow,
my sword does not bring me victory;
but you give us victory over our enemies,
you put our adversaries to shame.
In God we make our boast all day long,
and we will praise your name forever.”

Psalm 30:11-12

You turned my wailing into dancing;
    you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.
    Lord my God, I will praise you forever.” 

Psalm 31:19-24

“How abundant are the good things
    that you have stored up for those who fear you,
that you bestow in the sight of all,
    on those who take refuge in you.
In the shelter of your presence you hide them
    from all human intrigues;
you keep them safe in your dwelling
    from accusing tongues.

Praise be to the Lord,
    for he showed me the wonders of his love
    when I was in a city under siege.
In my alarm I said,
    “I am cut off from your sight!”
Yet you heard my cry for mercy
    when I called to you for help.

Love the Lord, all his faithful people!
    The Lord preserves those who are true to him,
    but the proud he pays back in full.
Be strong and take heart,
    all you who hope in the Lord.” 

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Holy are you my heavenly Father. I love you, Lord Jesus. Thank you, Holy Spirit, my comforter and counselor.

 

 

 

Motorcycle Accident – God Heals: Part 3

Motorcycle part 3

This is the continuation of Motorcycle/Camry Accident and the ICU: Part 2.  The accident was not a gift and I am not making light of it for anyone involved. The gift was found in the difficulty—the pain.

I assumed the cyclist’s death would be the end of my thought life fixating on the accident but the trauma of it continued to consume me and I wanted to close this chapter of life and move on. Why did this bother me so deeply? I cried every time it came to mind.

I finally decided to go visit, Terri, a Christian counselor who had helped me navigate other difficult issues in life.

Terri helped me pray my way through the events by replacing the traumatic memories with God’s healing truth; His words, which are medicinal. My heart and mind needed healing.

  • He heals the brokenhearted
    and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3
  • I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” Matthew 16:19

Please understand Terri did not heal my hurt. I asked God for help and he had Terri assist as Jesus interceded and the Holy Spirit ministered.

  • The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the suffering and afflicted. He has sent me to comfort the broken hearted, to announce liberty to captives, he will give beauty for ashes; joy instead of mourning, praise instead of heaviness. (Isaiah 61: 1-3, LB)

You may be asking, “How does a person communicate with God?” There is no ‘one size fits all’ for this answer since we cannot place God in a box.

  • Our God is in heaven; he does whatever pleases him. Psalm 115:3
  • The Lord does whatever pleases him, in the heavens and on the earth, in the seas and all their depths. Psalm 135:6

The best place to learn how God speaks is by reading the Bible and praying. A powerful way to invite the Holy Spirit to work and communicate is to pray scripture out loud.

  • For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12
  • It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak. 2 Corinthians 4:13

God often speaks to me through prayer; as I have questions he answers them through scripture as I read it. He also answers me through Biblical teachers and pastors while they are teaching the word. They do not necessarily realize God is using them to communicate to me; although, there are times they acknowledge God prompted them to say ‘this or that’ or read a scripture reference for someone’s benefit. I revel in these moments! Sometimes God gives me knowledge in my heart, soul, mind and strength that is not from my being; it is unexplainable outside of the Holy Spirit, but it always revolves around a matter of prayer, petition and/or fasting that I have offered up to God. There are times when God catches my attention with repetition. This does not have to be something I have talked to Him about. When I hear, with in a few days, the same verse, sentence or specific theme scripturally taught by a brother or sister-in-Christ; I sit up and take note! God has spoken—to me—little ol’ me.

I knew from previous conversations with Terri that she had a terrific tool to help me center on God and His truth regarding the accident, Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), which is used by trained therapists, through the power and direction of the Holy Spirit.

This ministry would help me stay focused while Jesus healed a hurt.

  • When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. John 10:4
  • So I will always remind you of these things, even though you know them and are firmly established in the truth you now have.  2 Peter 1:12
  • He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life. 2 Corinthians 3:6

The Lord helped me file this trauma away as a historical event rather than a raw emotion which is constantly on my mind. This has kept me from re-injury by similar incidents; which includes seeing a motorcycle accident while watching a TV show, watching the news or personally witnessing another accident.

I knew biblically it was acceptable to ask,

  • “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10

This Psalm referred to a supernatural work of deity, God, and the precedence had been set for me to ask my Heavenly Father for it. Is that not so like our God? He knows we cannot do it on our own so He offers to do it for us. I love Him!

I found my EMDR session to be a beautiful experience with the Lord. It was pure treasure. His Spirit was an overwhelming presence upon my heart, soul, mind and strength.

Terri began with a scripture and I began by thanking God for His constant grace, love and care. I acknowledged that the accident had taken over my thought life and I wanted to end this cycle. I wanted only His truth to be in me. I prayed as I followed Terri’s fingers (keeping me focused), inviting God to show me His heart, will and purpose for my involvement in praying at the accident site.

I also asked for a calmed spirit concerning the final destination of the cyclist. I acknowledged God’s sovereignty; while admitting my curiosity as to why He adamantly persisted I go pray out loud over the man.

  • “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. John 15:5-8

The most important aspect of Christian EMDR for me was being in constant communication with the Lord, through prayer. God gave us the gift of prayer so we could communicate with him. To not speak would go against God’s very nature so our prayers need to leave time and room for God to correspond with us.

It was a simple process. Terri suggested I recall leaving my house with my children and remembering what I had on my schedule for the day. She gave me time to tell God about it and allowed time for the Holy Spirit to minister to me.

We used this process to continue through my memories, which were mainly from landmark to landmark, as I drove my van.

When we arrived at the memory of the Lord telling me to go pray over the injured man, He communicated in my heart, soul, mind and strength;

“Child, it was because you are obedient.”

“Obedient?”

Oh the joy that was surely vaporizing out of every pore of my body as tears flowed. God instantly flooded me with memories of obedience including the times He led me to safety, led me through meeting my future (present) husband, my futile attempts to protect my child, ending unhealthy and unsafe relationships, homeschooling our children, learning to set boundaries in relationships, accepting friendships, parenting, and continuing to homeschool our children through times of great difficulty. God led me all the way. God chose to bring these recollections to mind when he could have brought a thousand opposing remembrances fresh to my attention.

Without Him and without obeying Him I could not imagine what a mess I would be.

All of the above memories will eventually be blog entries. They all qualify under ‘Thriving Despite Difficult Circumstances’ and they are all a story in and of themselves.

I have to testify that hardly any of my acts of obedience were instant. I almost always hesitated, asked questions or complained all the way through the process whining like a little child. On occasion I was even known to  kick and scream in the privacy of my bedroom or in my van.

Yep, I did. I truly am capable of such stubborn ugliness.

As I told Terri what the Lord was communicating to me I cried uncontrollably from joy mixed with remorse over my slowness to obey.

In prayer I told Him, “I’m sorry for not obeying the first time; especially since I articulate to my children the importance of obeying the first time they are told to do something.”

  • So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law. Galatians 5:16-18

“I trust You. I love You. I want to obey You. I want to be found pleasing You. You are always faithful even when I am not. Please continue to override my wants with what You know is for my best.”

“Obedient!”

“I guess I never considered that my kicking and screaming all the way was considered an act of obedience.”

“You are so patient and merciful, Father.”

Joy! Unspeakable joy!

I blew my nose several times, wiped my eyes and then allowed Terri to continue through the process to the end.

Seriously, this was the progression. When we finished and Terri asked me questions about the accident, questions which brought me to tears before beginning the therapy, they were nothing more than chronological memories with no traumatic, disturbing or depressing elements attached to them. I felt light hearted, made new, a weight lifted off my very person. That is Jesus! He can heal immediately, completely and permanently. I was never upset over the memory again, not even when we frequently passed by the very spot where the accident happened.

  • You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Isaiah 26:3
  • But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:26-27

John 16:12-16 “I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear.  But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. He will glorify me because it is from me that he will receive what he will make known to you. All that belongs to the Father is mine. That is why I said the Spirit will receive from me what he will make known to you.”

In another six months I would understand the application of this scripture in my life.

The Holy Spirit would come heavily upon me; to the point I would barely be able to hold myself upright.

In six months obedience would be my first choice. No argument.

The Holy Spirit would communicate, “This one is going to require you flat, face down. This is your spiritual heritage in the Lord; seek it.”

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My counselor was EMDR Institute trained and certified.

EMDR is used in secular psychologist’s offices but it has nothing to do with God and does not invite Him, through prayer, to heal the hurt, confusion or emptiness a person is emotionally or spiritually experiencing.

Here is my concern about doing EMDR that is not Christ centered: We know Satan is the great counterfeiter. Satan twists, turns and distorts God’s Holy Scriptures, attributes and principles to trick, deceive, steal from, kill and destroy God’s children. Having our minds focused on, or led by, anything other than God during counseling leaves our mind open to worldly interpretations, and very likely, satanic purpose. Our mind can become Satan’s battleground. Do not leave him any room!

  • Fix these words of mine in your hearts and minds; tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Deuteronomy 11:18
  • Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus. Philippians 2:5

 

*All scripture is NIV unless otherwise stated.

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The below excerpts are from: CHRIST-CENTERED VISUALIZATION AND EMDR IN HEALING TRAUMA. By Arlys Norcross McDonald, Ph.D. and Paula Johnston, Psy.D.

Trauma is defined by Webster as: ―a startling experience which has a lasting effect on mental life; a shock‖. It may occur to one personally, or it may be the observation of someone else experiencing a trauma. It overwhelms the senses and ability to cope. This includes many diverse situations, real or imagined, such as natural disasters, physical and emotional attacks, accidents, and losses.

Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is a successful method for treating trauma. It rapidly and effectively releases anxiety, disturbing emotions, and negative thoughts associated with trauma.

Christ-centered visualization

Visualization is defined by Webster as: 1. to recall or form mental images or pictures, 4. to make perceptible to the mind or imagination.

Visualization is a therapeutic technique used as a way of fostering healing, and changing perceptions that are destructive distortions and lies. The process of visualizing a traumatic event, combined with EMDR, enables survivors to release fear and anxiety associated with the event. Spiritual truths that are visualized can bring healing and comfort that words alone cannot.

Biblical Basis

God, as our creator, knows everything about us: our complete history, present, and future. He knew us before we were even born, and saw every influence upon our life.

He alone totally comprehends our body and neurological functioning, as well as our emotions, our thinking, our actions and reactions. We are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) and created to heal from most of life‘s assaults.

For more information on Christ-centered EMDR and to read some of the scriptures used in EMDR visit http://victormarx.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/11/Christ-Centered-Visualization-and-EMDR-in-Healing-Trauma-final.pdf

Involved in a Motorcycle Accident

Truth is like a lion

It was a beautiful, sunny and warm day in June of 2010 when I was driving Riley, with the boys in tow, to my friend Kim’s house. Kim, with her big fat math and science brain (and I mean that in the most complimentary way), taught Riley all of her High School math courses. Yes, we were blessed: Me, since I was a horrible math teacher who would have utterly failed the task, and Riley because she could understand her teacher and was able to learn and do well in math.

I was driving on a four lane highway in the left when all of a sudden in front of me, in the right hand lane, I saw a motorcycle rear ended by the car traveling behind it. I saw what was happening and I instinctively yelled to my children in a panicked out of breath voice, “Close your eyes—now! Keep them closed!”

The cyclist was hit, slammed against the hood and windshield of the car, bounced up in the air and came down hitting the front of the car. At that point the cyclist was pushed forward and rolled down the road. The car veered to the right to avoid hitting the cyclist again.

The unnatural positions of impact surely broke his back; maybe his neck.

“Lord, help him!” I pleaded.

“Guys,” I informed my children, “There’s been a terrible accident and you don’t need to see it. Pray.”

I instantly felt numb and nauseated at the same time due to watching, in what seemed like slow motion, an accident that happened in a matter of seconds.  There was one car in front of me in the left lane when I, along with all traffic, had come to a complete stop. There were already a couple of people out of their cars running to tend to the motorcyclist. Trembling; I dialed 911 on my cell phone and reported the location. I explained what I just witnessed and emphasized the urgency. I told the dispatcher that I did not know how a person could have survived what just happened and that I thought the motorcyclist would need a Life flight helicopter. When I hung up the phone I prayed with the kids for the man’s life. “A.J. and Colson,” I gently insisted,  “unbuckle your seat belts but keep your eyes looking down. Look down at the floor and do not look up. I want you to unbuckle and sit on the floor. Riley, do not look up sweetheart.”

Then I knew Jesus gently spoke to my very being: heart, soul, mind and strength— not audibly but in my spirit, “Go pray over him.”

This was the beginning of a back and forth dialogue between Jesus and me, all of which was done through the spirit without the kids hearing what was going on. The boys had found small buckets of manipulative toys I kept in the van for the times when we were sitting and waiting on Riley at extra-curricular activities.

“Lord,” I answered, “I don’t want to leave my kids alone in the van.”

He countered, “Go pray for him.”

“But I don’t want to see it. This is how an animal gets hit by a car…not…not a man.”

“Go pray for him.”

I opened the van door then without exiting the van, closed the door.

“Please, Lord, no? I can pray for him here in my van just the same as I can pray for him over there.”

“Child, I want you to go pray over him.”

I knew what Jesus wanted. He wanted me to go pray out loud over the man because a spoken word is powerful, but more importantly, God’s word is omnipotent. He has been teaching me the importance of praying scripture out loud for several years.

“The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Proverbs 18:21.

 It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak. II Corinthians 4:13

For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

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I told my kids I was going to go pray for the man and they were not to look out the windows. I asked Riley to please turn around and watch the boys. I opened the van door again and climbed out, took a step and turned around. Tears were in my eyes as I implored again, “I don’t want to see what happened. That (the accident scene) is too close.”

The Lord insisted, “I want you to pray for him; now.”

I took two more steps toward the accident then turned around. For the third time I turned back toward the man then turned back around to the van again. Once again, I turned back toward the man and turned back around. “Lord, my babies are in the van. I don’t want them to see this. I don’t want to see what happened and I don’t want to hear what is going on.”

He assured me in His always calm voice, “Go pray for him. You can do this.”

This entire conversation took place in less than ten seconds. It was amazing how fast the communication went.

The motorcyclist had not been alone when he was riding. He had a buddy on another bike who realized what happened. The buddy looked back at his friend lying on the road, turned his motorcycle around in the right lane and drove back. He got off the cycle and was on his side lying down on the ground facing his friend.

I thought of the scripture, “Where two or more are gathered in my name, there I am with them also.”  Matthew 18:20. I asked the lady in the car in front of me, “Do you pray?”

She responded with a, “Yes.”

I proposed that she join me so we could pray together and when she accepted we walked to the injured cyclist.  Another lady walked across the road from the oncoming traffic and identified herself as a nurse. She asked if anyone knew CPR or had given the hurt man CPR. We all, the buddy, myself, the lady from the car in front of me and another man, possibly the driver of the car, all said no. I told her I saw the accident and thought he could have a broken neck or back. The nurse began checking his vitals. I was aware that we still were not hearing sirens and I knew we were no more than two miles from a fire station. I was kneeling over the back of the hurt man. He had landed lying on his side. I again wondered if he had a broken neck, back or both. He was wearing a helmet and I could not see his face but I did see a pool of blood beginning to stream downhill which appeared to be coming from his mouth. He never moved from the time his body came to a stop on the road and I did not think he was conscious. His breathing was labored as he gasped for air through a gurgling sound in his chest; and I wondered if his lungs were punctured. I was overwhelmed and could do nothing but pray.

“Jesus, he needs help so we lift him up to you. Thank you that you live to intercede for us—for him. I ask…”

The buddy, looking up at me, angrily and authoritatively interjected, “You can stop right now! He wouldn’t want to hear a word you have to say and he wouldn’t agree with it or appreciate it!”

I looked at the buddy and slowly shaking my head up and down I acknowledged him, “I will respect that.”

The other lady and I removed ourselves to be out of the way since there was nothing else we could do. Walking toward her car I asked if she would still pray with me for the man  since he did not know Jesus as his Lord and Savior.  We both agreed that we still needed to pray for the man, now more than ever, so we stood beside her car and prayed.

“Father, I prayed, “You are the Lord, and there is no other. You speak the truth; You declare what is right. Satan has come to steal, kill and destroy and he is hoping to take this man as an unbeliever right now. Father, please don’t allow Satan this victory. We invite You to this place and ask that Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. We ask in Your name, Jesus, that Satan and his demons be made to leave—NOW— and be kept away. We ask that this man be allowed another opportunity to accept You as his Savior. I don’t know how he will possibly survive without Your intervention and healing. ”

I do not remember what else we prayed at that time. This sweet sister –in-Christ and I took turns praying and she spoke in tongues while I prayed. I was thankful for the body of Christ and that we each are a different part of His body which together function for Kingdom purpose. When we were finished I thanked her. We told each other our names but I think her name went in one of my ears and out the other without ever being filed away in my brain.

I walked back to my van wondering what on earth, or in the heavenlies, God was doing. He had demanded my obedience to go pray for this man and when I did I was basically told to shut up and leave. I would have loved to have seen what was going on in the heavenlies at that moment.

Why were we still not hearing sirens?

I had kept my van in the left lane so other vehicles could not get through. I knew I was blocking traffic but my first interest was the hurt man. Besides other vehicles could turn left at the intersection behind us and easily reroute themselves.

I called Kim ever so quickly to tell her why we would not be keeping our Algebra appointment. She wisely insisted my children should not be there and said she would come and pick them up.

After several emergency response vehicles arrived in the west bound lanes I was asked to move my van to the right shoulder of the east bound lanes. The ambulance came and the fire truck arrived and parked diagonally across both lanes to keep traffic from getting through. Most traffic had rerouted and left, including the lady who had prayed with me. I thought I better stay in case the police needed statements from witnesses. I also knew God had not released me from praying over the situation.

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I took my scripture notebook out of my purse and began praying scripture over the man and his buddy. The ambulance had arrived but I was certain the man needed a helicopter if he stood any chance of surviving.

Next thing I knew, Kim was knocking on the van window. She quickly shielded the kids and took them to her van. She had parked in the Quik Trip convenient station parking lot and had walked a ways down through a ditch to my van to retrieve my children.

I again thanked God for her friendship. Treasure.

I continued praying scripture while the emergency personal did their jobs. I passionately and powerfully prayed scripture out loud like there was no tomorrow; knowing there may very well not be a tomorrow for this man.

I wondered why a helicopter was not here. There were police men taking measurements and pictures of the accident sight. Two of them were standing beside my van window so I rolled the window down and inquired if they would need a statement from witnesses. They reported there was another officer working on taking statements who would eventually talk to me. I then asked them if they knew what had caused the driver of the car to rear end the motorcycle and they divulged that the driver thought he had had a seizure because he could not remember what happened. I kept expecting to see some form of media coverage since there is ample supply of all forms in the metropolitan area but I never saw a reporter or photographer, other than a police photographer.

Kim called to let me know she had arrived at her house with my kids and from what she gathered, they had not seen anything. I mentioned my concern that a helicopter had not yet arrived and that the ambulance had not left the scene of the accident. She immediately informed me that the helicopter was sitting in the intersection behind me when she came to pick up the children. I looked in my rearview mirrors and realized all the vehicles behind me were now gone and there was not a helicopter sitting anywhere insight. I wondered how I managed not to hear a helicopter land, or leave, or notice all the vehicles behind me had turned around and left. Had the emergency personal managed to take the patient right past me to the Life Flight helicopter and I did not even notice?

The only people at the sight were those involved in the accident, the emergency personal and me. I got out of my van, walked over to an officer and asked if they needed a statement from me. He said they had enough information and would not need my statement so I went back to my van to leave.

As I began to turn around an officer motioned for me to wait. The fire truck was leaving which would allow access on the east bound lanes. As I passed the sight I saw what I could not see from where I had been parked and did not notice while I was out of my van. The motorcycle was still upright and attached to the front end of the car. The car’s front end had hooked over the motorcycle’s back tire and the seat was against the hood of the car.

All of a sudden I realized I was shaking, uncontrollably, and was not fit to drive my van so I pulled over at the next intersection to sit in the parking lot of a gas station until I calmed down. It had been over an hour and a half since the accident happened.

“Father, I so want to know what You are up to but I understand I may never know. You often place me in situations where I have to fervently pray for someone or something.  But this time was different. It was at Your insistence and not of my own accord. It is exhausting but I thank you for the opportunity of involvement in what You are doing.”

I continued to pray.

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Next week I will continue with what I saw next, did next, prayed next, and what I found out about the man, John.